Calmer now

I signed up today for a site called Amish Living. I do hope I can meet like minded people. It is really hard for me sometimes, because I just want to go out to the middle of Pennsylvania and move near the Amish. I would be comfortable there I think. I know I complained last blog about being away from civilization, but–it was more about not having anyone to talk to. I know that if I moved out there, I would make a few friends and have people to talk to that didn’t think me odd for wanting to wear modest clothing, and cover my head, and be IN God all the time, I would happily give up my computer and other ways and go back to simplistic living. I would love to learn things every woman should know, like canning, sewing, gardening, how to clean a house properly, how to make a meal from scratch. I think we rely too much on modern conveniences and that takes away from God. I know–you are all thinking–as she sits at a computer and writes a blog…yeah yeah I know…*sighs* sometimes it is easier said….

 

 

Anywho–I will be taking my baptism soon! Happiness! Annnnd….I have been cigarette free for a year and 4 months almost! YAY!  I still need someone to make my dress. But now I want different fabric, I want a nice workable brown, so I can make it a work dress. I still need an apron as well.

oh! I made homemade tomato soup today!

 

The website is: http://amishliving.ning.com/

I was having a discussion with my daughter

about the fact that where she is living she says she cannot openly pray and worship..and I told her about having to pray in my closet…when I lived in a house full of Pagans.

She said, “You prayed in your closet?”

I said, “Yes, I did”

She said, “Weird”

So out of curiosity, since I KNEW I had read a verse on praying in the closet or similar to that before….I looked it up

and sure enough: http://www.openbible.info/topics/praying_in_a_closet

The things we find if we only look.

Happy Sabbath!

knots in my stomach

Once again, we are standing at the possibility of losing the house.

I know God has got us covered, but these close calls are taking their toll….just for electric and the rent alone–$567.50….and that is only paying HALF of Electric, just enough to keep it ON..

I am so scared I will end up homeless before I get my SSI..once I get that–then I won’t worry as much–but right now–it is just….oh my goodness..I can’t sleep..all I want to do is eat (which I do when I get depressed) I can’t do ANYTHING about it, cuz if I try to find work for money I lose my SSI.  However if I sit here and do NOTHING I feel useless, and worthless, which doesn’t help my mental state in the slightest…I do not know what to do…

Pray I suppose, I am asking…I am waiting for God to answer….

I got the paper today!

but like all court cases…I have to get him to sign ONE more paper…so I took it promptly to the post office..and bought two stamped envelopes, jotted a note..and dropped it all in outgoing mail…

so sometime in the next week or so I should have it all back and be able to take it to the court and get a court date….

so in 3-5 weeks..I will officially be: Mrs. Ronald R Hoffecker, Jr!

\o/ YAY!

Pattern & Fabric obtained

I got my fabric last night and the pattern the day before, Now I just need to contact Cindy and get with her to get my measurements so she can begin to sew the wedding dress…

I got pink gingham…:-D

Next I just need to get the apron & the kapp..I wish i knew people in that area of the word who could send me a Kapp and an apron…free…but–alas I do not, maybe Ill have enough time before we get married to go to Pennsylvania and get them…

God willing!

Psalm 9:2  I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing praise to your name, O

Most High.

i guess

in technicality today is their 40th anniversary. I talked to my mom on the phone today and she sounded exhausted….both emotionally and physically..I am worried if something doesn’t change in that house, she will end up in the bed beside my dad….

I am praying hard that my oldest son, changes his life, I am worried about him, very much, my mom says he is getting in trouble left and right…*sighs*

I am praying for my daughter that she learns to bear her cross silently, until such time as she finds work, and gets out of the house more….

I am praying that my youngest son & I can continue to get along such as we have…

I am praying that my soon-to-be-ex husband will send the stupid divorce paper back to me so I can file it and get on with my life.

I am praying for a lot of things….and a lot of people….

Pray for me?

Another Sabbath is upon us

Happy Sabbath!  HAPPINESS! *does her happy dance*

Father is home from the hospital. Tomorrow is Mom & Dad’s 40th anniversary, I was thinking that once I get married, if my marriage lasts 40 years…i will be 76 years old……

and he will be 69 years old…..

good ages I believe to celebrate 40 years!

well I cannot type very well this evening for some reason, so I will sign off…

<3 loves to my reader(s)

Home, Home on the range…

I have found that I am increasingly happy when I am cooking a meal on the stove. When i create food, for my soon-to-be-hubby…I am blissful. I hum in the kitchen, I smile after when he says, “oh wow, this is delicious”

*sighs contently* It really brings me joy. It makes me want to go help at a soup kitchen, and cook for the masses……

In other news, I will have my doctors appointment next Friday to finish off my SSI; hopefully everything will go well, so I can get on with moving and finishing up the plans for my wedding….

well love you all!

how utterly boring I’ve become

The most exciting thing I do all week…is go to church, how utterly boring I’ve become, and you know what—I am SO okay with that…does that mean I am getting old? Nay! It means I am finally settling down after long last….happiness abounds!!!

I can’t believe I am finally becoming an adult, and the word doesn’t leave a sour taste in my mouth either. I am FINALLY looking forward to getting married and becoming a proper wife…..

Heavens be praised!

This is what my wedding dress will lok like--only a pink calico print

and I will be making several other dresses as well–

the plans are 6 dresses

2 for good dresses: pink and blue

2 work dresses: brown

1 funeral dress: black

1 special occasion dress: white

also I will be getting an apron:

an apron or 4 like these,

and a Kapp:

very nice and plain

Thusly I will have made my transformation to modest dress.

1 Timothy 2:9 (New International Version)

⁹I also want women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or expensive clothes,

1 Corinthians 11

¹Follow my example, as I follow the example of Christ.

Propriety in Worship

²I praise you for remembering me in everything and for holding to the teachings,^[a] just as I passed them on to you.

³Now I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God. ⁴Every man who prays or prophesies with his head covered dishonors his head. ⁵And every woman who prays or prophesies with her head uncovered dishonors her head—it is just as though her head were shaved. ⁶If a woman does not cover her head, she should have her hair cut off; and if it is a disgrace for a woman to have her hair cut or shaved off, she should cover her head. ⁷A man ought not to cover his head,^[b] since he is the image and glory of God; but the woman is the glory of man. ⁸For man did not come from woman, but woman from man; ⁹neither was man created for woman, but woman for man. ¹⁰For this reason, and because of the angels, the woman ought to have a sign of authority on her head.

¹¹In the Lord, however, woman is not independent of man, nor is man independent of woman. ¹²For as woman came from man, so also man is born of woman. But everything comes from God. ¹³Judge for yourselves: Is it proper for a woman to pray to God with her head uncovered? ¹⁴Does not the very nature of things teach you that if a man has long hair, it is a disgrace to him, ¹⁵but that if a woman has long hair, it is her glory? For long hair is given to her as a covering. ¹⁶If anyone wants to be contentious about this, we have no other practice—nor do the churches of God.

In wrapping up—I am very happy with my new Modest lifestyle..a smile adorns my face everyday!

Wow–has it been THAT long?

Well since my last post (October 2007) a LOT has changed.

I moved to Florida with my LIFE COACH! Yeah! omg–I know right.  I am back to being Christian, I found after several months of trying to become what i was, I found I was no longer what I was…..get me?

Well anyway, I did that in April 2008….well then in October 2008, I got back with the previous boyfriend….and stayed with him until January 2010, when after much depression, whining, and stuff..we split up..

but rolling back to 2009 for a few minutes,

April 13, 2009 I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. It has now been a year, I have lost 25 lbs, I am completely vegetarian, i quit smoking 7 months ago!! I am back with the Life Coach in Lakeland Florida…and doing very well!

I have been attending a Seventh-day Adventist Church, here in Lakeland, and I have to say, I have never been happier in my life…I am like thoroughly amazed at the change in me, I was sitting at a meeting yesterday, with my fiance (oh yeah–waiting on the waiver to be signed so I can get my divorce!!) while he discussed IT work with someone…and they mentioned WordPress, and I was like–”HEY I have a WordPress!!” and so today I thought I would come here and check it out…well I have had my trip down memory lane, and I have to say, I was truly an unhappy person, I am hoping that since I have been away from the source of my depression for so so long (okay 7 months isn’t THAT long–but it is LONG) that I can finally start to return to my happy, bouncy, perky self….

I am still a work in progress..but that is a GOOD thing…